If you can’t be with the one you love like, love like the one you’re with. – The Isley Brothers
I call him when I want to be in the company of a man…when I want to be touched by a man. There’s no longer any emotional attachment for me. Oh, I used to love him – was “in love” with him, but no more.
After plans fell through with a male friend, I received a text from “the default” to “hang out”. I think ‘what the hell…I don’t have anything better to do so…why not’. He wasn’t my first choice but after 2 Patron shots I head to his side of town. The shots were my attitude adjustment.
As I’m laying there, Chrisette Michele’s “If I Have My Way” begins to play courtesy of XM radio.
You’re who I desire
You light my fire…
With every kiss
You take me higher
My mind drifts…I LOVE this song. Damn! Nooo, he’s not who I desire.
There’s no one I’d rather share my good lovin with…
Damn! Yes…there is somebody and it’s not the guy attached to the bald head betwixt my thighs.
One day we’ll make love
Passion unheard of
I’ll be your woman
If I have my way…
Sigh…deep sigh…if I had my way this would be someone else.
“My body’s here with him but my mind is on the other side of town”
…in my mind, the O’Jays interrupt Ms Michele’s lovely ballad.
I wake up the next morning to breakfast and a hot shower. On the drive home, I do what I’ve done many times before in this past year…I promise myself this is the last time.