I’m seven weeks into sharing my home with a very close friend and I’ve come to realize just how anal I am. Shocking, I know, because I didn’t think I was. 😉
Sharing my space with another person has brought to the forefront my slight obsession with wanting things a “certain” way…my way.
First let me make something clear. In all honesty and fairness this should bare no harsh light or negative connotations towards my friend/housemate. She is respectful, neat, thoughtful, and does her fair share of cleaning so my issues are, well, just that, my issues.
The paragraphs that follow will make me sound self absorbed and selfish…just an all around ass. I feel that way too just having the thoughts. This is the result of being single and living alone for a long time. You become accustomed to things being a certain way in your “space”. You find yourself very territorial about your “space” and any infringement quickly becomes a major irritant.
The first 5 weeks were a breeze for me then without warning or provocation something in my head sort of “snapped” and for the past two weeks I have struggled to suppress my anal “demon”. LOL
Little, insignificant things make me want to scream. I want the silverware a certain way in the drawer and the pots organized and stack my way.
When frying bacon turn on the fan over the stove and when done, spray the house with the Lysol Nuetra Air (I hate the smell of fried foods in my house). Also, don’t save the bacon grease because I don’t cook with that mess. I didn’t know people still did this! It’s bad enough I eat the bacon; the grease is just another accelerant for clogged arteries. UGH!
Awful, I know. ::hangs head in shame::
I believe there is a purpose and reason for everything, a lesson to be learned from every situation in which we find ourselves. This is no different. I’ve made it no secret that I want to marry and have children and I believe it will happen. God will bless me but I realize I have to work out my “issues”. I think I’m being prepared for what’s to come but I have a lot of work to do on me.
My current living arrangement has highlighted things I need to “let go”. I am working on doing that and praying at the same time.
Heaven help me!